Que Sera, Sera...

You know the rest! lol

Well my dear readers, it's been quite a while I know. Lately I've been on the pendulum called life and death... So far, death seems to be winning. Things just aren't falling into place and well, I haven't done a great deal to any plans into action. Some may say, "Hey, how about actually TRY to get something accomplish?" I would have to reply with a "no shit sherlock" attitude, "If I could get my body to agree with my mind, I wouldn't be thinking suicide will be my savior." I feel like a lost camper striking matches... If I can start a fire, I will survive, keeping that fire going is another story.

As for a thing called love, there's a sprout that may grow into something beautiful. Since memorial day I have been in conversation with a really sweet guy. The trouble is a first meet since he will not be back up here until august. The small news may seem good but I have my doubts and all fingers point to me. He's a great guy, smart, funny, caring, lots of wonderful qualities.... So where's the problem you ask? Well I'm not as interesting as him. He goes out, can cook, knows how to drive and what do I have to offer? The ability to screw myself over and be able to help him out if he ever played a rpg I play online... Doesn't sound so tempting eh? Yeah, I agree too. He doesn't paint such a boring picture of me but I feel I can't keep his interests or anyone else's for that matter...