Male Repellant

...Perhaps I should start a blog with that username... Seems more fitting. You can ask any Dom or guy I have spoken to and they will tell you that I set myself up to appear displeasing to them. In public situations, it is worst because anxiety overcomes me to a point where I don't let my best self shine. In one particular case, I met at a cafe with a potential Dom I had spoke to for a few months. He found it hard to get communicate with me since I didn't make eye contact and would stare out the window. Now, before I receive emails or comments about my behavior, keep in mind I did tell him I was a painfully shy person. I am not saying that excuses what I did but it is a reason nonetheless.

I lack confidence when interacting with others in public, especially with men. If I really like the guy, then the anxiety multiplies and may result in the previous experience I mentioned. Often, I daydream about being able to be confident with a guy and just be me, whoever the hell that is! LOL Say men would say I have that confidence, I'm just not aware of "it". Recently in a phone conversation, the man on the other end told me that within the first minute of speaking to me (it was pretty ordinary conversation), he wonder how I sound when I moan. In another case, a man I meet up with was so turned on by my lips and what he 'claims' I was doing with them (shit, I don't know!) that he took me right on his living room floor... was a good night in december.

I wonder in a D/s relationship, how does the dominant handle a sub with this problem? How can a dom help a submissive to become more confident about herself and with her dom or other men (if the relationship is open)? I imagine being in for a long lesson on this issue.